Starting out.

I'm not much of a writer.
I don't have the abilities of a poet or an author, and I definitely do not have the skills to make people laugh and cry through words.
So what am I doing here? What is the point of this blog?

I've been inspired by someone else. My purpose is not to be read, but rather to use this space as a place for me to put my thoughts down. I'm pretty young and life is extremely confusing, so hopefully, I can grow from this, metamorphose into something better, stronger and beautiful.
I used to think that I knew what I wanted to do with my life. Of course, even before, my goals were a bit different from that of some "vanilla" people. (Already, you see the first label revealed to which I have applied myself. Okay, then, on with some more labels.)
What am I?
I am a long-time S&M enthusiast without a partner.
I am a student, a bad one (relative to my illustrious classmates).
I am a hopeless romantic, with a tendency to be absolutely miserable when my ideals are shown to be illusions.
I am...

And here I stop, and pause. This is the point where I realize that I am also an idiot, for I know nothing at all about the world.
I know nothing about the way people TRULY interact with each other. Yes, I have an idea, and I've always fancied that I can figure out the motives behind people's actions, but do I truly understand?
Will I ever be able to step inside someone else's shoes?
I know nothing about life; about the way to live, the way to true happiness.
The Buddhist way of inner peace and abstinence is closed off to me, because I am also a hedonist. I revel in bodily pleasures because I've not enough of it; rather, I revel in the idea of bodily pleasure, because relative to some of the more... prolific college-age men out there, I am inexperienced.

It comes as a surprise to me that there is actually a lot in my life I have to figure out.
For future reference, I will mark things down here, so I won't forget any pieces.

Relationships: finding the one and only. And: does a one-and-only even exist?
My life and S&M. Being a submissive, and how I can ever find the one who is meant for me.
Career and life goals.
Philosophical inquiry and inner peace: happiness.
Friendship.

This is a pretty hefty list by itself. Most of these topics will take up a great deal of postings and time, not to mention writing about the way current events affect my life. Well, it'll be a challenge to take on a somewhat herculean task. I suppose I will end here, and get back to the work that I have been putting off. Blogs are fun.